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Hello family!

I check this blog everyday to see if someone has posted on it. Is it stupid for me to still get giddy when I see an update from you guys???

A few things going on with me right now.

Good things first:

At alpha Lee has been talking about the difference between operating in the spirit and with our own minds. He was saying that sometimes you are crying and you're brain doesn't know why or doesn't get it, but then when you're done crying you find yourself not bothered by certain things that used to bother you. He said that God was probably working on bringing healing to you at the time but you just didn't know it. Anyway, I thought that was cool.

So last Wed. was my last night playing bass at burn. We are in that time of "lasts" right now in Jacksonville, and it stings, but I know God will be faithful. And Panama City has great fish tacos so that's always good.

Anyway, all these beginning paragraphs had a point initially that I got distracted from. SO at Burn I really felt that God had healed me from the pain Julie had caused over the years and the bitterness I kept set aside for her. It was awesome. So last night, a random opportunity came up for just the two of us to hang out and we went for a walk. I told her, after some small talk, that I was sorry for being so distant and that it was because I was having trouble letting go of the way she acted during my wedding, but that I was better now and wanted to continue our friendship. She knew what I was talking about right away, and said that she was very bitter about not being engaged but knew afterwards that it was wrong to take it out all on me, and that she was really sorry, and that she had been feeling bad about that for some time. WHAT SWEET RELIEF!!! It was so nice to finally talk openly with Julie and remember why we became friends in the first place. I am not getting my hopes up to think that there will not be any more pain in this friendship, however God is always good.

I'm going to New York in 5 freakin days. I absolutely, positively can not wait. I'm excited to be on an airplane...its been 6 years since I was on a plane (that was when we went to chicago). Work is stupid, but i'm rich now because of it, so that's good... if you like that sort of thing.

I'm having specific issues with specific people at work and feeling specifically hurt by their specific choices. So if you want to be praying for that... I'm sure I'll need healing for this one too at some point down the road as well.

Also, becuase of work I don't get to see Matt very much at all. 2-3 hours every day or so at the most and it is usually in a group setting because of an event or something that we're scheduled to be at. Then the other nights he's gone at work till I go to bed. Pooo for me. Hopefully Panama City jobs will offer complementary schedules. :)

Ahhh and remember the drama of the counseling couple that was upset because we didn't go to their counseling? Well more drama from that mama is back!!! They have a young marrieds group on the first friday of every month and are very upset because Matt and Brendan have a CD release show that night that are taking the group away.... heh... So now she's e-mailing Matts mom asking why she decided to host "a party for young couples the same night as their party for young couples". The mom told her it was Brendans doing and not "for 'young couples", but for everyone. I'm not cool about it because I hate that we're obligated to the first friday of month just because we are newlyweds- have we no say in what we want to be involved in?? oh well...

Carl is great but extra fat. And he is completely in love with the fishing toy. He plays with it every single freaking day. Today I woke up and there was a note from matt saying "Carl puked but I cleaned it up"... Good ol' Matt, always to the point.



-Janelle